Alien abduction and Hyperfixations.

A super symptom of my ADHD is hyperfocus. It sends me into exciting rabbit holes and energy knows no bounds research into my chosen topic. I become a walking repository of information, facts and titbits. I eat, sleep and breathe my fixation. Its a breathless riot of information and the pure joy of research and learning.

Unfortunately Part of the statement I made earlier is false. It turns out my energy does know bounds. The spiral at the end of the fixation crashes hard, leaving me exhausted and tired. My fixation sours and I'm left, overburdened by facts and a chunk of time missing from my life like an alien abduction. The rampant depression and empty feelings of loss at the end it makes me tired and uninspired, All the great ideas and creativity sapped and lost to me. Then its the long trudge back to normality.

I’m at the end of a hyperfixation at the moment, hence the un updated website and the left hanging instagram pages. I hate this. I would kill for consistency in my life. I watch people blessed with consistency with a mixture of awe and envy.

A long way of saying: Aliens have dumped me back on Earth and normal service will resume!